Well this post is kind of sewing related but also a little bit off topic so I apologise in advance!!!
Through vlogging I receive an enormous amount of comments in relation to my figure and my body size which are, in the majority, extremely complimentary. However, I have recently received a few comments which have indicated that the way in which I talk about my body may be insulting or offensive to others who are larger than myself.
I know you have to take the rough with the smooth and the positive comments outweigh the negative ones, tenfold!!! But I couldn’t help feeling a little concerned that I may be unconsciously affecting my viewers and how they feel about their body image. To that end I felt that maybe the comments made could have some substance.
I have made no secret of the fact that I suffer from an autoimmune disease but what my viewers may not be aware of is that this disease caused my weight to plummet suddenly and I lost in the region of 2 stone within an extremely short space of time.
Following a number of tests it was confirmed I was suffering from Ulcerative Colitis which, as the name suggests, is a condition that causes ulcers in your colon as a result of your body attacking itself. Fortunately my Colitis was diagnosed in the relatively early stages and even more fortunately it was Colitis rather than Crohns which is of course substantially more debilitating and inherently difficult to treat.
Initially I felt aggrieved that someone had the audacity to suggest that I was unable to comment about my own body in any way which I saw fit. However, given time to mull over the wider implications of the way in which both I and my viewers perceived my body caused me concern.
I have always struggled with my body image and I don’t think anyone can really see themselves as others do. This is of course coupled with the fact that, as women, we are compelled to put ourselves down constantly and always focus on our faults and flaws rather than the things which we have going for us and, of course, compare ourselves to others. Given my own body image issues I became concerned that I was in some way impacting upon this impediment in others.
I have therefore committed to be more mindful of how my comments about my body may impact upon others in future vlogs. Whilst I cannot change the way I look, and the fact that I am drawn to a fitted silhouette rather than a relaxed one, I can change the way people perceive me. I want my viewers to be fully aware that I have no judgement in respect of anyone else’s body shape or size as we are all different and whether you are overweight, underweight or just right that is a matter for you and only you as it could be down to a number of reasons unbeknown to anyone else. I have no place to comment in this regard and certainly would not intend to and any comments I make in respect of my own body are no reflection on anyone else’s but purely observations in relation to me and me alone.
Whilst off topic, I have felt compelled to write this post as it is easy for people to comment on my figure and believe that I am somehow lucky to look the way I do but what they don’t see is that I too struggle with body image and do not see my body as others do. They are also unable to see that this body is a result of being afflicted with an illness which has caused me pain and discomfort for a number of years and will continue to do so for the foreseeable future.
So once again I apologise if this post is too deep but it has been on my mind for some time and I needed an avenue to vent my feelings about it. It is also not an attempt to gain numerous comments which are sympathetic to my condition it is just a post about what is on my mind right now with no strings attached.
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